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I am THE Sith Master :evillaugh: :jedi::jedi::jedi::jedi:

"You're so beautiful but that's not why
I :iconletter-lplz: :iconletter-oplz: :iconletter-vplz: :iconletter-eplz: you" Avril Lavigne- I love you

"Always remember, If you have an ambition no matter how stupid it may seem to others. No matter what people say. You CAN do it. I believe anything is possible if you are willing to work hard for it and no matter how long it takes. You will do it." BFMVIDRAWWHENASSED

"You can do it, I swear You're not stupid, you're talents just lie elsewhere, never think you're stupid. No one is stupid, I mean it. You're perfect the way you are, and if people don't think so, they should get their head out their rear and look at the perfect girl they're slagging. Rant over" Friend of mine :)

" Daniel has been studyin gmusic theory for 3 years, ive done music and theory since i was 5 years old. that is the only reason we have got A's. You, however, have the ability to create songs, to craft a whole new image in a matter of words. These results mean everything to me and daniel, because we need them for further education. They will not affect you in any way with your band. I mean, an A in chemistry isnt gonna make your guitar sound clearer. It's all about practice and developing and evolving as a band, and as an independant musician.
you'll have my backing no matter what, anyway
and with whatever i end up doing in the media, just remember that im a contact of your's that you can depend on." A good Friend of mine :love:

"Black Veil Brides will stand strong for you we will take on the worlds
hatred so that you dont have to live your life listen you your music
way to loud be as crazy and as " different" as you want to be
and always remember you're not alone." -Andy Biersack


"I had a goal, I had a dream... and at the end of the day
no matter what people say to you as long as YOU know
who you are as a person NOTHING else in the world matters." Andy Biersack

"Stitching up your own wounds, like battle scars" Andy Biersack

"If you have some sort of passion you go for it, you do it" Andy Biersack

"Just Keep going forever" Andy Biersack

"If you can do something keep going forever" Andy Biersack

“Life isn’t about how popular you are, what girl or boy you’re dating, or who you know. Life is about always being true to who you are or what you believe in. Never let anyone convince you that their way is better than your way. In the end all we have are our hearts and our minds. This is the reason why we sing, this is the reason why we cry, this is why we live.” - Andy Biersack

“As we grow up we learn that even the person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it gets harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love, so take many pictures, laugh too much and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is one minute of happiness you’ll never get back.” - Andy Biersack.

"Music Is the instrument of my life" BFMVIDRAWWHENASSED

"Being unique is what's cool. Normal? What's normal? A setting on a washing machine, and no one wants to be that." -Ashley Purdy

"If there's anything you want in the world don't let anybody tell you, you can't have it" Andy Biersack

“Regardless of how dark things can get in your life, there’s always a way to find personal strength."------Andy Biersack

"Our message generally is always believe in yourself, there's absolutely no one in the world who can tell you that you can't do something You're the only person in the world who can set your limitations" Andy Biersack

“If you create something, be proud to show the world. Take joy in who you are.” Andy Biersack


"Each and every one of us has a fire that burns inside us and they
can try like hell to put out that flame but as long as in our minds
we know who we are meant to be, they don't stand a chance." Andy Biersack

"People may hate you for being different and not living by society's standards, but deep down, they wish they had the courage to do the same" Ashley Purdy

"If there's anything you want in the world don't let anybody tell you, you can't have it" Andy Biersack

“Regardless of how dark things can get in your life, there’s always a way to find personal strength."------Andy Biersack

"Our message generally is always believe in yourself, there's absolutely no one in the world who can tell you that you can't do something You're the only person in the world who can set your limitations" Andy Biersack

“If you create something, be proud to show the world. Take joy in who you are.” Andy Biersack

"Each and every one of us has a fire that burns inside us and they
can try like hell to put out that flame but as long as in our minds
we know who we are meant to be, they don't stand a chance." Andy Biersack

"People may hate you for being different and not living by society's standards, but deep down, they wish they had the courage to do the same" Ashley Purdy

"The president was shooting bombs over seas yet I'm the bad guy because I sing Rock and Roll songs..And who's the bigger influence? The President Or Marilyn Manson? I'd like to think me, but I'm gonna go with the president" Marilyn Manson On the media for blaming his music for Columbia shooting.

"Follow your heart and chase your dreams until you catch them. Negative people who say you can't do something are only speaking for themselves" - Jake Pitts

"Something so little and silly to you could mean the world to someone else" BFMVIDRAWWHENASSED

“You want to know who you are? Figure it out for yourself. Do not let your surroundings dictate your identity. Do not let your parents or your families rule your sense of self. Do not let your past control your future. These things are entirely up to you and you alone. You make your own decisions.”
— Corey Taylor

"The only certainty is that we never know what tomorrow holds. We live for today, life is short so let's enjoy it together while we can" Jinxx

“When life leaves you alone… Take that loneliness and turn it into something beautiful.” Andy Biersack

"No matter how much you've worked so hard to be as successful as you are, there will always be those ignorant haters who don't understand." Jinxx

"Suicide isn't cowardly. i'll tell you what's cowardly; treating people so badly that they want to end their lives." Ashley Purdy

"Dance like no one's watching; sing like no one's listening; love like you can't get hurt, and live like there's no tomorrow." Ashley Purdy

"Creating art or something beautiful makes you a more fulfilled person than they can ever be because they're caught up in what they hate rather than what they love." - Andy Biersack

"Create your own reality...become your own rockstar, find your passion...and we will be here every step of the way with you."
- Andy Biersack

"We will be whatever they need us to be. Call us emo's, liars, and cheaters...tell people how awful we are and how little talent we have...do whatever it takes to make themselves feel better because at the end of the day, we are strong, we can take it. We don't need their approval to justify our lives. Each and every one of us has a fire that burns inside us and they can try like hell to put out that flame but as long as in our minds we know who we are meant to be, they don't stand a chance." -Andy Biersack

“You know i think that it’s a very tough thing because suicide is something that you know it’s sort of, there’s two sides to it a lot of people vilify the idea of suicide because they think that you are know some how your hurting other people by doing it and that is very true but the thing that people don’t really understand about that is the people that do commit suicide feel like they sort of hit there last leg and that they have nothing left and i think it’s important to always remember that regardless of how dark things can get in your life there is always a way to find personal strength. you know there are so many bands out there that they write songs and i can.. i listen to it and i’m like i’m surprised that more people don’t listen to this band and commit suicide because, there’s nothing, there’s nothing in your lyrics says you can find any strength, and it’s not true i mean life listen mean life isn’t bad life is good you just have to make it that way and you have to be able to find strength within yourself to rise out of the darkness, i mean anyone that you know can find something whether it’s artistically or you know in there mind or whatever you can find something to find a way out of the pain that you are in and there’s actually we have a song knives & pens which is about my choice that i made when i was around 14 years old to either cave from all the stress that i was going through of getting bullied and picked on and everything else or to create some thing so the metaphor for me of you know knives and pens its the choice between you know self mutilation or violence or you know being creative and that’s actually i think why that song has done so well it’s a lot of kids can connect with the idea of sort of hitting that final you know your faced with a choice and i think that it’s the strong people that can rise out of it” Andy Biersack

‎"We will be whatever they need us to be. Call us emo's, liars, and cheaters...tell people how awful we are and how little talent we have...do whatever it takes to make themselves feel better because at the end of the day, we are strong, we can take it. We don't need their approval to justify our lives. Each and every one of us has a fire that burns inside us and they can try like hell to put out that flame but as long as in our minds we know who we are meant to be, they don't stand a chance." -Andy Biersack

‎"Sometimes we fall before we stand it's all about getting up and trying again" BFMVIDRAWWHENASSED

The Test Tubes Are Coming!!! :icontesttubesplz: :evillaugh:

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:bulletred: NEVER GIVE IN :bulletred:

A reason, A victim,
A shining beacon in the sky

You yearn for what's missing,
The power hidden in the night.

An angel, a demon, (a demon!)
The parts you play on lonesome nights.

The damage, inflicted,
The pain and lust they leave behind.

Never give in,
Never back down,
Never give in!

We're soldiers, in season,
We can bring change before we die.

The tails of the beatings,
To feel what lies beneath our eyes.

Never give in,
Never back down,
Never give in,
Never back down,
When your life feels lost,
(FIGHT AGAINST ALL ODDS!)
Never give in,
(NEVER BACK DOWN!).

Never give in,
Never back down,
Never give in,
Never back down,
When your life feels lost,
(FIGHT AGAINST ALL ODDS!)
Never give in,
(NEVER BACK DOWN!).


:bulletpurple: 4 WORDS TO CHOKE UPON :bulletpurple:
Betrayed one more time
But somewhere down that line
You're gonna get what's coming to you

Look at me now
(Look at me now)
Look at me now

Pull it out from my back
Soon I'm the one that's on attack
I can't wait to return the favor

Look at me now
(Look at me now)
Look at me now!

Too many times I've seen it rip a hole into our friendship
This is how it's been
How it always will be
You think you're above me? (you think you're above me!)
But now I'm here to envy
FOUR WORDS TO CHOKE UPON

Look [LOOK] at me now!

Betrayed one more time
But somewhere down that line
You're gonna get what's coming to you

Look at me now
(Look at me now)
Look at me now

pull it out from my back
Soon I'm the one that's on attack
Can't wait to return the favor

Look at me now
(Look at me now)
Look at me now

Too many times I've seen it rip a hole into our friendship
This is how it's been
How it always will be
You think you're above me? (you think you're above me!)
But now I'm here to envy
FOUR WORDS TO CHOKE UPON

Look [LOOK] at me now!

Oh!

Too many times I've seen it rip a hole into our friendship!
Four words to choke upon

Too many times I've seen it rip a hole into our friendship
This is how it's been
How it always will be
You think you're above me? (you think you're above me!)
But now I'm here to envy
FOUR WORDS TO CHOKE UPON

Look [LOOK] at me now



:bulletblack: ONE DAY "I'LL SAY "LOOK AT ME NOW" TO ALL THOSE NON-BELIEVERS SOME DAY THIS WILL HAPPEN :bulletblack:

This song is so beautiful I cannot express how much it means to me. :) It's just so powerful maybe even perfect to me :')

"So hear my voice remind you not to bleed
I'm here"
Someone is always gonna be there :)


:bulletpurple: Saviour :bulletpurple:

I never meant to be the one who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn because of who you are
I will take this burden on and become the holy one
But remember I am human and I'm bound to sing this song

So hear my voice remind you not to bleed
I'm here
Savior will be there when you are feeling alone oh
A savior for all that you do
So live freely without them

So here I write my lullaby to all the lonely ones
Remember as you learn to try to be the one you love
So I can take this pen and teach you how to live
But what is left unsaid, the greatest gift I give

So hear my voice remind you not to bleed
I'm here
Savior will be there when you are feeling alone oh
A savior for all that you do
So live freely without them

Savior will be there when you are feeling alone oh
A savior for all that you do
So live freely without them

When I hear your cries praying for life
I will be there
When I hear your cries praying for life
I will be there

I will be there
I will always be there
I will be there


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:bulletblack: Hate ME :bulletblack:

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space


Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.



I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind


Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.


And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
For you.
For you.
For you.


:blackrose: Black Orchid :blackrose:

"Black Orchid"

Have you ever been so lonely,
No one there to hold?
Pull me in or disown me,
And then climb inside.
My arms are open wide.
Have a look inside.

It is not that I am scared to learn,
Why I'm empty inside.
hold my hand or show some concern,
If I live or die.
My eyes are open wide.
Help me look inside.

I hear the water drip from the faucet.
It's sweetly falling in tune.
I'm gently closing the closet.
I fall to the floor,
and crawl to my room.
The thought of ending it soon...
Just let me sleep in my room.

Hear me cry! cry! cry!
I hear a knock at the front door.
Don't come in!
I try to look at you
But I can't stop shaking.
Leave me alone. Just go away.
Mother I'm so scared.

Empty bed and all of the sheets are gone,
They're wrapped around me and you.
All is quiet but the drop of a gun.
I want to belong...to someone...
But maybe life's not for everyone


:bulletblack: SexTape :bulletblack:


Floating on the water ever changing
Picture hours out from that
Into with all our dreams

The ocean takes me into watch you shaking
Watch you weigh your powers
Tempt with hours of pleasure
Take me one more time
Take me one more wave
Take me for one last ride
I'm out of my head

Tonight, Tonight
Tonight, Tonight.. I..
The sound of the waves collide
The sound of the waves collide
The sound of the waves collide
Tonight

Cruising through the city after hours
With me fusing all our powers
Here's to all our
Take me one more time
Take me one more wave
Take me for one last ride
I'm out of my head

Tonight, Tonight
Tonight, Tonight
The sound of the waves collide
The sound of the waves collide
The sound of the waves collide
Tonight


:blackrose: Devils Night :blackrose:
I am an enemy of everything
My life is not for sale
My heart is in this fight forever
What can you take from me?
When there’s not a single fucking day
I haven’t fought to stay alive?
We’re finding hope in the hopeless
I am still their voice that gets stuck in your head
I am me
And I have come to fucking scare you to death
Because that’s what you deserve you disgusting piece of shit

I know the only words that you have for me
Are give up and get out
You'd like to think that we've been beaten
But we're here to stay
Forever and always

Every single day
Not giving up, living up all my dreams
So go ahead and look like I’m inferior
Condescension, Suffering, Callousness and Loathing
Are the badges I have earned for my cause
And I am finding hope within hatred
A reason to persist, to push past everything
We are here
And we have come to scare you to death
Because that’s what you deserve
You fucking fake ass hypocrites

I know the only words that you have for me
Are give up and get out
You'd like to think that we've been beaten
But we're here to stay
Forever and always

So loud
We are the ones that you pushed away
For drowning your voice out
You’d like to think
We've been defeated, but we’re here to stay
Forever and always

We've been through everything
And we all have our scars
We may be broken but you
CAN’T KILL ALL OF US
GOOOOOOOO!!!

Think before you fucking speak

I am no villain, think before you fucking speak
People fear what they don’t understand
And so now beauty has become the fucking beast

(Maybe you didn't hear me?)

I SAID GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!

I know the only words that you have for me
Are give up and get out
You’d like to think
That we've been beaten but we’re here to stay
Forever and always

So Loud
We are the ones that you pushed away
For drowning your voice out
You’d like to think
We've been defeated, but we’re here to stay
Forever and always


:blackrose: Smile :blackrose:
We move together, we cruise till the end
Screwing and shooting our way out
You want to know what it’s like?
Then watch this
You want to feel again?
You wanted this…
Welcome to my world
Now, you want to feel again

Smile, you’re born again
Do you feel wet? Do you feel love?

We’ve sailed through hell knows
They’ve sank but we float on
You want to go for a ride?
It’s over you want to feel again?
You’ve always said that you knew my worth
and now you want to feel it again

Smile, you’re born again
Do you feel wet? Do you feel love?

We cruise together… It’s me and you till the end

Smile, you’re born again
Do you feel wet? Do you feel love?
Interests
So I finally feel today was a step in the right direction a for process in recovery I suppose, I had a shower and I didn't want to cut myself I didn't even think about it which is honestly the first time in months as a continuation of the previous update. I finally told my flatmate everything, from the constant cutting to the suicide thoughts. I'm waiting for my referral for therapy to come through and I start my new medication tomorrow. The weather here is improving that's something for Scotland, so I went for a walk down the river yesterday in the sun and just talk things through, that really helped. I woke up this morning with a purpose I finally looked forward to getting up and out of bed. It's going to be a long road to full recovery but today felt like a fresh start after everything got said yesterday. I feel we can breath fresh air and start again to fight to get through this. 


  • Mood: Content
  • Watching: Family Guy
  • Drinking: Tango

Update.

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 7, 2014, 10:43 AM
:bulletpurple: So what's going on in the life of Hetty the chemist, well. Where to begin. I got diagnosed with depression again and self harmed again. I usually type personal things like this on my tumblr but I wanted to type it on here because her I upload my art, my  writing and that is what I do to vent all my personal feelings. I'm on a course of anti-depressants and to be honest they didn't help, they made the anxiety, over thinking and nothingness worse. I've had some really dark days where everything seemed so hopeless, that i'd go for a shower and stick razors over my arm and my thighs. For some reason it helped and I don't know why, I get so scared sometimes that I'm not going to get better. Telling my flatmate who is my best friend probably the most amazing friend I've ever had in my life was the hardest thing, she knows i'm clinically depressed and self harming, she saw more scars on my arms two days ago they weren't fresh at the time they were like 2 days old. We talked in my room the other night and I was trying so hard not to just breakdown in tears explaining my severe emptiness. And the look in her eyes when I told her, she didn't say anything but look with such a look of helplessness. And eventually managed to say "God Don't cry" I haven't had the guts to tell her that the other night I wanted to die, I wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. And if she ever reads this I apologies now.

I just can't seem to find the words to explain how I feel when I'm feeling low, it's a bleak blackness that I get sucked into and I cannot escape. It's as unpredictable as my moods but  I had to admit that cutting myself seems to help me, I feel better after I do it. Explaining that to my family, my flatmate is just so upsetting. I show my scars and they just have to turn away or they'll cry. I feel so selfish sometimes when others see my scars and say that we need to talk then they ask why I did it and they just don't understand. Literally all I want now is for this to go away, I am getting my medication changed and am getting an immediate referral for therapy.

Sorry 

Hetty The Chemist :music: 

  • Mood: Anxious
  • Eating: Chilli
My phone line got installed into my new flat so I now have internet, finally. I have to go through 3000 messages lol. Anyway how's it going? I've missed uploading tbh. I'll start with some photos then get some writing up 

Heather "Hetty"
  • Mood: Joy

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